Post Aqua Bike blues

Ok..so this wasn't my best weekend.  I felt totally unorganized and a bit stressed about the swim and the rain...I really didn't want to ride in the rain.  I am a good swimmer...but I'm not a fast swimmer...I know that...I don't panic in the water....but I don't kick either..haha...I can't decided if its the wet suit, the swells (they weren't that big), my sighting or that I'm just NOT a great OWSwimmer.....sigh...and then...there's the bike....I really thought I would be better this time...new bike, working hard...but I can't seem to get out of that 15mph range....the hills still get me every time..and my quads and hammies start almost from the beginning bothering me.....I obviously didn't eat enough on the bike...well, eating is a relative term b/c I don't eat on the bike..but i didn't drink enough..though I never felt really thirsty....I guess the good thing is that even though I was happy that I didn't have to run when I was done..it thought maybe I "could" run, which is an improvement.

I guess I'm just mad at myself for not losing enough weight...not being FAST at anything...frustrating and beginning to really worry about Florida.

I was beginning to see great improvement, if not in speed, then in endurance with my run until my calf started acting up.  It actually feels pretty good today as does my foot so I will try and run a bit tonight...and maybe stay for boot camp...we'll see.

I think, really, that I set too high of a goal for myself...at least for the bike...i don't even figure the math out in my head..i just think about what I WANT to do..and then think I can do it...but really..that would be an improvement of OVER 5mph..and that's pretty much not gonna happen.

I'm really nervous about the flat bike too.  My time in aero is painful..hoping I can work on those muscles in my neck....bi weekly massages will just have to be on my "to do" list as will the chiropractor....love my chiropractor..haha..she's the only one I rust to adjust my neck!!!

ok, enough bemoaning the weekend.....I don't have another tri until the Half in Williamsburg...until then...swim on....swim on...and work on the bike....must....get....on....the....trainer...in...aero.....