"Good enough?"

I have been reading a lot of posts on FB lately and some blogs about accepting our bodies for what they are.  Accept the fact that "we" will never be thin. Accept the fact that "we" may never be fast.  Accept the fact that "we" are who we are...

BUT...I just don't buy that...not totally anyway.  I do accept that I need to be nice to myself..that I do need to accept WHO I am and WHAT I look like right now..in the moment - or else life becomes very painful - BUT I do not accept that I cannot change.  I CAN be better....I can be a better person. I can love more. I can be less selfish. I can accept others at face value. I can give second and third and fourth chances to people who hurt me or just plain annoy me.  I can live daily like its my last day.  I can BELIVE that "Today is going to be a good day."

In that same line, my body can be better.  This doesn't mean that I don't love myself...because there are times when I don't really love my body...this isn't because I'm not thin enough or pretty enough or have great boobs or thin thighs - its because I want better for myself....OF myself and I know that I am capable.  I am strong..I am beautiful, I am lovable...BUT I CAN BE BETTER!  and THIS is my goal.  I want to be thinner..but not for thinness sake.  I want to be stronger. And I want to be faster. I think the two go hand in hand.  I want to be able to climb hills on my feet or on my bike without cursing and crying and wanting to walk.  I want to be able to swim 2.4 miles in my sleep!  I want to be able to run 26.2 miles and not be miserable.  AND the truth is..I believe it can happen. ( I may still be miserable at 26.2 miles..but I'll know its because thats a dang hard distance!)

I used to think that "finishing" was the goal, but now that I know I can finish..I want to do it WELL.

And for THIS reason, I am in love with what my body can do.  I am in love with the fact that I am already stronger; that I am already innately faster or can go longer and feel GOOD.  There's so much ground yet to cover...I have GREAT friends...I have supportive friends..and I have friends who love me even when I cannot love myself (and I"m sure they don't love me all the time because I am not always lovable! LOL!)

Even though there is much ground to cover...to be BETTER...to BE a better person...I am happy to be on this journey.  I'm happy to be able to set and attain goals and then refocus on other goals.

I don't begrudge those Athena's who are learning to love themselves and accept their "athenaness!" (is that a word? I just expect differently of myself.